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FissionI've put your poison in my veins,Fission by alexcinderpelt
but there's nothing inside it can kill,
I've put your trust into words I seek,
I should have trusted in me,
I'm so bipolar with how I should feel,
and now it burns around me.
I throw my life into yours,
and I want it back,
I compared my heart to yours,
I guess I need you back,
I'm still looking to you for hope,
but you're not here,
you can't be,
and I'm dying slowly, more painfully inside,
though I began this with you while I was hurt,
and we left from there and now I'm hurt,
I can't find hope in another,
because I left it all in you.
I can't talk to you,
let alone yo the same for me,
I still love you,
though it's not my place to call you "dear",
Everything I can ever say will only be interpreted
as a way for me to hurt you.
All I wanted was to teach you,
now I can't as I no longer belong to you,
I've listened to you speak of how you run
through relationships like water,
All I wanted was to help you settle down,
I wanted to be the dam to a river flowin
Myself (Dear me)Dear me, yes a letter to myself: listen closelyMyself (Dear me) by alexcinderpelt
"I've made it this far,
I can't listen to you any longer,
I wish you would die out already."
"no I can't do that...."
"you need to let go,
in hopes that i will grow,
no, I'm sorry....
you're someone I cannot become."
"no, I can't do that to her,
and no, you have no control here,
after all, all you, the me I cannot
falter to, is just an empty echo."
"yes I'm afraid of you,
you're so selfish! I mean come on!"
"ha that's true, I'm giving you up
for the ghost you are to build another
you to take your place."
"and I'm tired of it."
"we're so jaded at a young age, or more so, to the fact....the fact
of who we could be."
"I'm sorry, but I'm breaking
the chain, and i'm going to
take us places we know we
need to be, after all we have
this conversation often...."
"you're afraid.... I know, afraid
of the comings and goings that can
happen but sometimes don't.....
don't worry, don't you dare worry,
you'll find who you're looking for,
all of them,
I am in my own eyes a skilled writer and soon to be possible teen author, laying line upon line of stories of my life put onto paper as stanzas of poetry and short narratives. |
I'm usually very friendly and would lick your face if I had the chance but be warned I bite on occasion ( I'm a fox but not a furry kk cuz? ._. ).
I play 6 instruments and might take up violin in the future even though I can't read sheet music to save my life which isn't very practical.
I'm currently in high school and have no idea what to do as an occupation after despite knowing what I wanted to study as I'm not going to college now.
Besides being a friendly person I'm kind and compassionate and do things without need of something in exchange even when offered because nice guys finish first not last because I will defend to the death the people I care and come to care for and I kind of have a short fuse when It comes to anger and people I can't tolerate despite being very tolerant.
I love anime, I love cartoons, I love my friends, I love music, and I love love love writing and an occasional sketch even if the sketch looks terrible to some people.
Fears/Hates: heights, needles/needle like objects, drowning (can't swim), mud,
people I can't tolerate at all, people who mess with my people, oh and I fear death and needles with a passion.
(see interests to get a feel for my likes but first I'll be honest I like and need attention to function properly)
So as the pickup line goes "if you like water, you'll love 70% of me"
you can contact me through here or gmail ( email@example.com )
for anything! mostly literature help and stuff though please
Spanish, Japanese, and German are languages I'm passively studying